What I want to be when I grow up.

Actually, I don't have a friggin clue.  I've been trying to find out what to do with myself for months now, well, ever since my son started kindergarten.  I stayed home with him until then and I stay home waiting for him now.

I was in Accounts Payable before I was a stay at home mom.  I could always go back to it I guess, but I DON'T WANT TO!  I don't want to sit at a desk all day every day.  I don't want someone watching what time I come in and what time I leave.  I definitely don't want anyone telling me what to do.  Immature?  Maybe.  Do I care?  No.  I've been working in an office since I was 16 and supporting myself since I was 17.  Now, I have a chance to do something else.  But, what?

My dad is a hair dresser.  I've seriously considered cosmetology school and all of my friends say I should go.  It definitely would be fun to have a creative job like that and I like the thought of bartering for all of my beauty needs, but something holds me back from going this route.  One of the biggest draw backs is that Saturdays are the biggest money days for this kind of work and I cherish my time with my boys.  I don't want to give it up.  Also, I hate female cattiness and this industry is FULL of cattiness and drama.

I've considered doing something really responsible, like, going back to school and becoming a Physicians Assistant.  I like the thought of doing something important.  I like the thought of being in school for a while.  I dislike the thought of a strict schedule, and truth be told, I'm not the sanest person in the world.  With a job like that you can't have days of insanity and I have lots of those.

Last night my wonderful husband asked me what I would want to do if I could do anything in the world.  Not thinking about money and not considering my current skills.  I thought about it for a minute and told him that I would want to stay home, bake, exercise, and write.  So, apparently, I want to be a Suzy Homemaker Writer.  I don't have the slightest clue how to write and I'm not a fabulous house keeper.
So, I guess today the plan is to start this blog and start reading my fly lady emails again.  I was really hoping for a better plan that that!